Dude, I have enough guys driving me crazy in this head. I have not a single clue on what Michael should or shouldn't do. That is only in your control. Can't wait to see what happens next with him!


You know.. I have NO idea sometimes. I still wonder to this day. Hell, I confuse myself all the time and with other people in my head, and me in Cory's head, crap- I'm lost.


You know, firstly- thank you so much! I'm really glad you enjoyed it. But honestly, no idea either. I think it's the characters just telling me their story and feelings. That and I get so wrapped up in the images (where I'm at in the story at that time) and the songs that drift in out of my head and then, I've got a part.

It's weird really. I always have scenes that are far in advance already in my head. Like Destiny was playing over and over for MONTHS before we finally got there. And I already have the 'way' back home to earth playing in my head (song, images and all) and we haven't even left to go there yet. Does this make sense? Or am I crazy? Wait. Don't answer that.


I paid no one. But I BEGGED and begged Cory to make that banner for me. I was like- "I want this picture in that picture. Please?" She must think I'm insane, but she did it and it is SO DEAD COOL.



You're going to think this part is funny. I had finished writing the whole part and then I was like, oh crap! What about the fire that was burning? And because it wasn't in the banner Cory had made, so I had to do something to fix that plot hole. Hence, came the idea that it died.

and lastly, the last line is not mine at all.
That I owe all the credit to Dawsons Creek- it was the line Pacey used on Joey. Rather it was the scene he painted the words "Ask me to Stay" on the wall in red paint for her. I just HAD to use that one.

Anyway, thanks Stalker! I was beginning to wonder over here because all went silent and damn Cory took off. I was like okay, did it suck that bad?

Now come on Stalker-- give us some hot M&M sex. Cause we sure the hell know that Liz won't cave over here.

Oh my God. Thank you. That was actually three seconds-scribbling because I was in a hurry. And yeah, you'll get the ER.

Now, you don't want me to answer if I think you are crazy? Okay.
I actually know what you're saying, though. I mean, I usually don't write with everything fixed in my head. I start off from an idea I have, a quote, a look, a situation, and then the character grows and takes over, and sometimes they do sh*t, and I am like, "what?! Did I tell you to do that?!" I usually don't have all planned out scenarios in my head like you seem to have to with Destiny.

And something must be wrong with my brain because I saw that P-J-wall thing but can't remember! Oh well...

I still love the fire. And I forgot to add before that the lyrics you used are amazing and fit your writings to the T.

Yeah, I figured the Jetta was too oven-like right now since Michael last stated he was melting away in the Roswell heat...

And thank you, Spice, really, that is so sweet. You know, I still find Maria pretty damn real, it's actually scary, so you don't say stuff like that. She's a lot more real than most of show-Maria actually.

BTW that reminds me of the kick-ass New Year banner that's up FD's Main Page! I love it to pieces; it's so cool! And so fitting! I screamed my *ss off when I saw it!

Yeah, well I am worried. You always kick my ass with Liz posts, so I'm trying to prepare myself now.

Well?! Max lives inside me, so like everytime you do these things you get my stomach all in knots. It's sick! You're torturing me over here... the queasiness is starting to affect me.

I guess I am screwed up, too. The most unfehr part is that being screwed up works for the RPG but nothing else: I start writing, and Michael takes over, and I am frustrated and angry as hell (not that I didn't have enough frustration and anger myself, thank you), and I just let it out when things go well.
Then I sit down to write a freaking Christmas fic for Teresa, and it's Michael POV anyway, so you'd think it'd be easy... NAH.

Sometimes I HATE him.

Anyway, letting out my frustrations on the RPG now.

Bunnie - Will still PM you back but am thinking hard about what the hell the original plan was!

Stalker--

So I guess then I'm the only sick one with the thoughts forshadowing in my head? Now, I feel so damn alone.
You guys would probably freak if I told you all the scenes I have up here right now.

Ohwell...

Hmmm... Let's see... Yeah, I think a majority of it is.

Max--
1. one scene with his Mom on Antar.
2. the scene with the way home from Antar.
3. scene with Liz upon arrival back home to Earth.
4. The ending (which I've had since day one. )

Kyle--
1. scene coming up
2. scene with Max before he leaves (oh this one is hysterical on my end. )

See? What is that? Like 6 things bugging me... and four songs that I know of (not including one that Liz might or might not use )

See, that's the really REALLY weird part... no planning here either. It just comes. Really weird. Like I'll be driving to the store and all the sudden a song or a scene just flashes - I have NO idea where it comes from, but the whole scene is just like *there* -- you know? And all I have to do is *try* and remember as many details of it as I can.

Love Michael's fly by the seat of his pants though.

Um, actually I stole that line from Julia Roberts in Pretty Woman? Ever see that movie?

It's sort of sexual remark I think. But in a way it says that life is not planned.

And possessed was what I am afraid of.