Zook--

Spice-- Yeah, if you asked me I'd say he's my better half... but if you asked him, I'd bet he'd say I'm his everything.

Stalker-- YEAH right! Dude, he's never got an expansion a day in his life! I remember back in NJ about two years ago, I had to actually camp out at the mall for two days in a row!



Yeah, you should have seen his face too. He *so* knew of the yelling that would take place all night long if I returned empty handed. He was even like, "Yeah.. NO.. you can't go home..."

And trust me... when he asked what took me so long and I explained, he was like... uh oh... and I smiled. Payment is the best price!

Stalker-- you really wanna know?

Maybe cause Jen seems to find them fun excursions-- or the fun that comes after them? The word down tends to be incentive enough.

Spice-- Ahem... yeah... think very gutter.

I know I haven't posted down here in forever but I did want to share all the stuff that's going on.

First off I finally got Jazzy (my oldest) registered for Pre-School she's sooo excited about that!

Clayton does have to go for speech therapy we'll be doing that once a week in the home starting in the next week I believe.

And also my hubby will be home soon! By the end of March or the begining of April he'll be home! They have two flights comming in and he will be on the 2nd one but only about a 1 month wait left! I am very excited about this (plus the fact I can't wait to get him home and lock him away in the bedroom )

There's a guy I met through an online 'Lord of the Rings' group who lives not terribly far away, and we both rather dig each other, but he's VERY allergic to fur-bearing critters. I have a deep and abiding desire to someday have a cat. Those two things are not compatable. AUGH!

This guy is just...great. Intelligent, considerate, takes the wants and needs into consideration, a gentleman. He has a HUGE HEART. He's patient. And he takes me as I am. I've had problems with that before, and it's been a big prayer that I find a guy who will accept me as I am, warts and all.

I've never felt overly self-conscious when I'm with him (granted, it's only been once). Yeah, I've had twinges of "What if my hair isn't perfect?", but those go away pretty quickly. No nerves when I was with him, just having fun. It felt totally effortless and natural to just be hanging with him and being myself.

Ah, yes, being myself. I've always felt like I have to impress guys when I hang out with them. Not this guy. When he came to visit and go see Return of the King with me, I didn't make any particular effort to trick myself out. I wore a t-shirt that had meaning that only a Lord of the Rings fan would understand, but beyond that, I did as much that day as I'd do to go hang with one of the girlz.

I told him today that I'd like to be more than friends, and...he wants that, too! I'm so not used to that happening! It's always one-sided (either I like the guy and he doesn't like me, or vice versa). And he's been thinking about it longer than I have, from the sound of the way he was talking. But his allergies are the sticking point. He doesn't want to be more than friends if there's no chance of it going any further. Which is a bloody intelligent decision to make, which makes him even MORE attractive to me. AUGH! Why can't he be a total ass? That would make it so much easier to just let go?

If my desire for something fuzzy to huggle was not so deep and strong, I'd simply focus on other pets that won't cause his allergies to flare up, and there are ways to deal with not bringing in allergins from the zoo, or wherever I'm working. But...I don't know. I'm going to sit on this for a bit and mull it over, and talk to friends who have wisdom in the area of relationships, and pray for wisdom and insight, and see what shakes out. I'm going to an Oscar party with him next Sunday, so if I decide that I'll be willing to n'er own a cat, I'll tell him then.

I made my decision: him over the cat. He's too good to let go for a cat.

While he's definitely open to being more than friends, he has "reservations" about our different religious backgrounds, our "cultural differences" (whatever those are, and something I can't remember. Oh, yeah. Long-distance relationship, but I pointed out that an hour between us isn't that far apart. He conceeded that.

The religious backgrounds is something that could get sticky. He was raised Catholic. I was...well, I believed in God and sneered at Jesus until I was a senior in high school, and then I became a Christian, and I've attended mostly Baptist churches ever since. So, yeah, there are differences there. For my part, knowing his background, as long as we're in the same groove when it comes to getting to heaven (works vs grace), I'm not going to balk if there are echos of Catholicism in what he does. It's totally understandable. And I have no problem with going to Mass on holidays and the odd Sunday/Saturday night if it'll keep the peace with his family. I draw the line at converting to Catholicism or raising my kids Catholic. And I don't want to be attending a different church that he does. I've seen kids get royally confused and mixed up because Mommy and Daddy do two different things on Sunday. Heck, my mom's a Christian and my dad's not, and while we all went to the same church, the conflicting messages I got from them was enough to mess me up. I don't want to do that to my kids. My faith is important to me, and I want my kids to embrace it as well.

I didn't say my faith was more important than his. Mine is important to me, and I want to marry someone who's on the same 'wavelength' in the basics of faith as I am (Jesus Christ is the Savior and it's through His atoning death on the cross that our sins are forgiven and we get into Heaven). I respect and understand why he'd look at religious background, and there wouldn't be any hard feelings if he decided we wouldn't be compatable on that front.

I don't want, or expect, anyone to change solely to have a relationship with me. I take people as they are. Period. If we were vastly different, I'd accept that would be an issue if we got serious and I simply wouldn't pursue anything beyond friendship.

How exciting! How was the Oscar party?

That sounds like fun. I"ve always wanted to go to an Oscar party.