yeah i did to once upon a time, but the system wore me down. and since no one gives a fltying frak about your grades after you leave school I've taken a much more relaxed stance.

Yeah, that used to be me. Therepy helped lol

Iwas like that too. i had trouble opening up (and even telling the truth) at first but one day I had a moment of clarity. I had to go to my therpists office at the hospital one day instead of the one at semi-private I normally went too because she had some meeting or something that day so I got to sit in the waiting room with all sorts of people I hadn't seen before. People with problems a lot bigger than mine. I relaized that nothing I could say about myself to my thepists could possible be any crazier than what some of these people must have told her (and the other theripist in the office). She has heard it all before and she will hear it all again. And if I suck it up, tell the whole honest truth, I'll get better faster and never see her again and it will be like I never told anybody to begin with.

I hope you work it all out Everyone is different. I have a friend who goes to group therpy too. It took her a while to really open up too, Eventually she said it got easier, and she's feeling better. Not all better yet, but getting there.

I hear you. That was one of the things that held me back. I had a little easier cause i was in one to one thepry so I only had to deal with the therpist.

That sounds kind of annoying. I'm sure it has some practical purpose, but spending that much forced time with someone has to get irritating

seriously? ok that's a big line. There are some things you need to do in peace like you peeing, and showering and dealing with unruley hair.

I get that some people with eating disorders will go to extreme lengths, but everyone deserves a little bit of faith! My friend who was in group therpy, they just took the lock off the door. She got to keep her privacy, but if you had a relapse, she couldn't keep her family out. All around good. Except that one time her brother forgot to knock and walked in on her. I had to hear about that one for a week lol

It's a process, relapses are almost expected. Not a positive thing, but not uncommon. When I was treated for anxitey my therpist told me at our first meeting that it's not about simply getting rid of the problem complety, it's not possible. It's about reconizing when thoughts and actions have reached a level where its interfering with life or causing harm and seeking help.

But hey, 20 pounds it a lot better than 45! I'm sure evetually you and your doctors will reach a happy place with your weight. It just might take a bit longer. and yeah, paying someone is a bit much, but at least she didn't follow you in, and trusts you to use the restroom.

I'm the same. I have relapses of the panic attacks every few months. It's taken me years to figure out that its sandwich effect of triggers that set me off instead of the obvious things like school stress or money issues. For my fighting is a huge trigger. If I have a fight with my mom or sister or close friends, I'll start having panic attacks over things that a week before I could have handled just fine. But then every once and a while, just to mix thing up, I'll have a panic attack for no reason.

i used to take meds but i stopped last year when I had progressed enough to talk myself out of a panic attack. I didn't like the side effects. At first it was worth feeling slightly robotic to not have the attacks and socialize at a normal level, but as i got bettr at controlling the attacks and learned to not left my anxitey get the best of me (after years of threpy and quite a few panic attacks I couldn't stop anyway) I reached a ponint where the negative effects out weighed the benifiets. I've been doing pretty good. Aside from a meltdown in December over finals and papers (which was totaly warrented by the way) I haven't had any panic attacks since about a month after i stopped the meds last spring.

and my friend did the same thing (im going to keep calling her my friend since I{m only like 4 people she's ever actually told outside her family and it seems wrong to use her name o nthe net). She was a runner though, She's run around the track at the high school when she was upset for hours and hours. more than once before she got help she's have to call for someone to pick her up because she was so weak she couldn't walk home. One of her doctors reccomended she learn something else to calm her down instead of running. I tried to teach her how to knit, but that didn't work lol. I think she does water colours now. it's hard to use watercolours when you're over-emotional apparently. I've never tried, they are too finicky for me.